bossy

on my 350th post, im still going nowhere.

why cant my heart feel what my head knows?

so here's the thing

guy: i really like you, alot. i want you to be my gf mike.
girl: huh? but i barely know you
guy: lets get to know each other then (or some fuck like that)
girl: huh? but wait, i thought you were in madly head over heels could commit suicide get drunk and die in love with my cousin?
guy: gets embarrassed, fumbles with his limited vocabulary, and walks away.

and similar scenarios come by.





there's only one word for guy = desperate.
and i fell for one, what does that make me?


seriously, what the hell was i thinking?!
for one and a half years.
when i think about all the time i've wasted i could cry, swear.
fucking blind, dumb, deaf. should have listened, saw and talked about the monster he became.


whats that coming over the hill is it a monstaaaaa?


okay im bored, and yea, i am seriously GOING TO NEED TO MUG MY ASS FUCKING OFF FOR GEOG AND GET MY GRADES BACK UP BYE BYE SOCIAL LIFEZXZX

why

why, when you dont want people to know everything you still subconsciously come down here and pour it all out for the world to see?

why, are people so concerned with the way other people are, as though it were a reflection of their own mistakes?

why, are things made look so simple, but they are in reality, far from it?

why, are the oldest of relationships so fragile, since when were they based on superficiality, based on judgements.

why, are people so hard to please, so quick to judge, so quick to break hearts, and so quick to justify themselves?

why, are people deluded in the idea that they have the power to judge, justify, criticize, rationalize, bully, patronize, isolate.

why, are people becoming more and more predictable as we read on.

why, are we living lives when these questions cant be answered?

why, are we never satisfied with what we have and looking for more

why, when we were meant to live, for so much more.

why, when the skies are dark we wish for the light, but when the sun rises we wish for otherwise

how, did we get so lost in ourselves, so consumed and so selfish/

how, did i make so many mistakes that cant be undone.

how, most importantly, am i going to get through another 7 months in this hellhole.



the answer is, me. im going to pull through, throw however many things u want to throw at me, i have already raised my white flag, its already over, now i'm just gonna keep my opinions to myself, cause they only get me in trouble.


and yes, this blog, is now, private.

if you seek amy

If You Seek Amy - Britney Spears

glory glory man united

well, we lost 4-1. it sucked being at clarke quay, and everyone of us manchester united fans were screaming our lungs out at the first penalty, and when the 3rd goal from liverpool came in, that mind blowing freekick that no one expected and all, thats when our sprits were broken, and we resigned to fate, beaten on home ground. this is depressing.

BUT WE'RE STILL ON TOP BITCHES, WE KNOW WHO THE REAAAL CHAMPS ARE AT THE END OF THE DAY.


and im missing a non optimistic someone really badly. i dont know if he knows. maybe i shouldnt have made too many plans. cause now i cant seem to take my mind off him.

please

what do i have to do to please, i give up. i surrender, please stop this, i know it makes you seem all mighty powerful, but i cant stand this anymore. I'm breaking down, i don't need to disappear, you're already making it seem like I'm non existent, i deserve this, but i give up, i apologize, i don't want to do this anymore. please just stop.

othello.

. says:
hhahaha go study la
i need to youtube

wlao, i wish i was widya on days like these.


fuck you black moor.