shoo!

PROMOS LAH FUCK!

cornell.

sorta like it actually, sold out though.

soon as you say.

so maybe when things start looking up, i could go...
i have plans.


vamos, seriously. sick and tired of being emo shit gah gah gah.
who really cares though.
you think i havent made the efforrrrt, think again.
cb, at times like these you need some 42 by coldplay... now where is death and all his friends.

voulez vouZ

okay, update. new ipod classic 120 gb. :D

new stuff to listen to while mugging, but album art's a hassle. GP essay was a disappointment, but considering not having spent enough effort on it than i ought to i suppose i deserved it.
but i dont think i;d be that happy saying "i deserved it" if i flunk my promos:due to lack of studying. MAMA MIA WAS THE SHIZNIT BTW, PIERCE BROSNAN CANT SING THOUGH :(

yea, i ought to get going. why is it that im missing so many people? i cannot wait to get out of JC and have THAT life. i dont know what THAT really is, but it definitely doesnt involve dealing with crappy subjects, crappy people with crappy problems and crappy food at crappy prices.

yes, cheers to my crappy life.

why am i such a pravind? :)

wheres my clock

quit life.

darling, there's a million ways to be cruel

miss ya'll homies.
shannen doherty's on 90210
dont you miss those charmed milfs? i for one miss alyssa milano, she is...much hotter than scarlett actually.
abs breen is crazy beautiful

alyssa too hot.


had a relatively fine day, everything was fine except for the mad pw rush, managed to get everything in order, but there's ONE grammar error that i missed out, hopefully its okayy...dum dum dum.
uploading those teachers' day videos. naren can ask em from me right about... now. dad's mont blanc is getting to me, i dont know if i'll be able to sleep. nyeh.

anyway, i sorta miss janani. eliminate sorta, alot. she made me laugh...pretty much mosta the time AT HER. so yap, after the promos i look forward to some major catching up. already made some plans to totally take her own, aish date style, havent exactly told her but she doesnt exactly read this does she?

sara's got these bumps, so please all gods help her heal :D

went to sch with bffs today and phyllis and gwen on 105, gwen looked damn shag. pw is getting to everyone, tmr is freedom from wr, the bulk of our grade. mr holden seemed impressed, hurrah to him.:D

i like my good mood, its refreshing, tmr ocip philly talk. go there sing song build house damn shiok. :D imma miss ya'll tho.

sometimes when you look for answers its best prolly not to look under the bed. you tend to find a bear looking at you, and then you wonder where that person rather significant in your life has been gone lately. i dont know where you are, or what you're doing, quite the contrary to how things were before. i said i missed the hanging, you said alright, not quite the answer i was expecting. anyhow, i miss you friend, you were one of the few that really had me going with all the shit going on. i need that strong shoulder. if you're reading this, this is my cry.

so here's the deal, promos. i havent been studying. i really havent. its started to bug me, its clawing in. i clocked in two decent hours last night and was pretty prouda myself, but i forgot what i learnt today. the only thing i recall is econs, and some bnw and othello. i really am having trouble remembering facts for geog, so sara you gotta help me out yo! :D

If history repeats itself, and the unexpected always happens, how incapable must Man be of learning from experience.

George Bernard Shaw

you speak to me shaw. i often repeat my mistakes, not learning from them. i am incapable, i need progress, individual not as a whole society.

most of all, i need soma.

sweet cherry.

sometimes you wonder if life will pass you by with the rate time is going by.
i try my best to take time to treasure every sparing minute i have with my friends, my classmates.
and try not to expect the same. we all have alot on our minds. but sometimes it just bothers me, how the business of others can fascinate one so much. i am one, guilty of such trivial insignificant pleasures in my life. knowing about something, being part of some crowd, somehow makes you feel important, loved, included.

and then sometimes when you arent, you begin to feel like you are alone. my question is why.why is it that its some form of human instinct to feel bothered when you arent let in on some form of gossip, or arent invited somewhere, or not important enough? just instigates you.ouch hand cramps. this feeling is vivid in ma mind, first started when i was in primary school, when sophia didnt tell me what she was whispering to joleen.

its come to a point where you dont want to bother. there are many days where i just dont. im improving from the curious 6 year old i was. progress, isnt that what we all aim for? i was in class today, trying to stay awake, didnt sleep as much. progress. didnt talk as much, progress? i can feel myself changing, i can feel others changing, growing, our relationships changing.

do we want it to change?i dont really like change. coming to CJC was a stepping stone, i learnt how shallow and how generous i can be when i want to, ive been stretched to my limits, tolerance. ive become somewhat a better person, but im very much aware of how my surrounding treats me, and it bothers me of how unappreciative i am.

im able to tell how people react and why they react in such ways. im able to predict how the day would be with my someone. has my decision made my life so darn predictable? i love my classmates, they are a hoot. but would we remember each other after these two years. are there memories with EVERY SINGLE ONE of my classmates that i can hold dear? do i have the next year to get this done, and move on? do my classmates feel the same way.. hmm?

sometimes you say things you dont want to say, you hear things you dont want to hear, but thats life right? you say you dont mean it when you actually did, you hate it when people look down on you when you fall down once. you hate it when people put you down for your failures and dont applaud you for your success. is it just me here?

i shouldnt be thinking so much, ive embarked on this journey of constant self reflection,hoping to somehow conquer this sudden behavioural problems ive been having. if ive been spending more than just enough quality time with you, please do know that im trying to learn from you. i look up to you and somehow someday hope to be just like you.

perhaps if i went through the other path of tertiary education things would be different. shallower, hedonistic thoughts perhaps. but then again i always have, always will be a self motivated skeptic. if i dont go through this phase now, of critiquing every move i make, my friends make, then id prolly go through it later.

so much drama in my life, without it... hmm... nah. i wouldnt trade it for the world.


did i mention, im always thinking about you. even as i type this. i wonder how you over at 409.
i really miss my secondary school friends right now. mainly kenneth, ulfred and leeyen. cause i know, it wont change.

fuck

please shoot me if i tell you i havent been studying.

the next three weeks, i need to start studying

if not its hello orientation o9

KEEPS GETTIN BETTER.

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OKAY, HYPERVENTILATING. GTG.

yummy

woke up today to glenda's msg. ahh im so looking forward to seeing you guys.


okay toy coming over soon, need to figure out master plan.

bossy.

the song thats on my blog has ALOT to do with the way ive been lately.


okay maybe not.

im so happy these days, im quite surprised at myself :D
hopefully it'll last.


eyy, i miss you boy at granny's place. cant wait for tonight! :D

quayyum

quayyum and my dad share the same birthday.

i dont know the guy, but what i saw during 2 years back during teachers' day rehearsals and shit with all his creepy grins and weird jokes...

wait that sorta resembles by dad when he's around people he doesnt really know.


fuck, quayyum's gonna turn out to be like my dad.
okay lah, he's a pretty awesome dad. happy birthday to you, i love love love you! so does mummy.

quayyum doesnt know me so its okay right?

ahhh so much drama.

okay i prolly am a no life loser, today was the first time i fully heard coldplay's viva la vida.

i just had a total peyton moment, and i havent felt like that ever since stereophonics. really made me appreciate the art of music, how it speaks to you, both lyrics and rifts. really took me by surprise since X and Y was like....crap.

ahh, coldplay. ahhh chris martin. i heartxxzzz youuuexxx.

anyway, t2 went to eat at golden rooster at coronation plaza today,food was yummy, price was yummier. shane, gab,brennan becca and i left to serene centre to do pw, pretty productive but i had to leave early cause its DAD's BDAE TODAY. happy bdae daddy! we bought the large coke at macs. wow, LARGE. had fun with t2 today, havent seen my class this happy in a while, since the stress of the promos and all.


wendy... WHAT. :)

ulfred and i went to catch 4bia yesterday, major shocker, it was fucking scary, BOTH of us screamed like major faggots in the theatre lahhh! quite embaressing actually. there was one part ulfred jumped out of his seat, and towards the ending he wanted to go home, too scary niazz. haha, said it was all an act, shda videotaped it. sigh. but it was fun, ima watch more thai horror flicks with him, just to watch him squirm and his balls shrink to a true chinaman size. hehehe.

finished watching gossip girl, the hills and tree hill today.

gossip girl was fucked, i cannot wait for the next episode cause there's too much drama going on between blair and chuck, why cant they just get over their big egos and fuck each other already, too much sexual tension! but i always wanted blair and nate to be the always and forever couple. chuck and blair can be q.f mates.

the hills, was 20 minutes of total drama, actually not much drama. it was quite refreshing to see less of speidi and more of whitney, the less bitchy side of the show. whitney's got a new BF! yeahhh! hallelujah finally! but the thing is, i saw next week on the hills, and i died. TOTALL DRAMA. doug and brody in jail, doug got punched! he seems quite full of himself, especially with his profile on the net, tsk tsk. oh and she-pratt brody dramamama. OMG AND AUDRINA TOTALLY SNUBBING LAUREN! screw lo for screwing their friendship up! tsk, but this special episode airs monday next week not tuesday, cant wait!

but the worse was one tree hill, too climatic, i want a time machine fast forward to next week!!!! lucas and peyton FINALLY GET TOGETHER AS IN LIKE MARRIED AND SHIT after what seemed like FOREVER, six seasons actually. omg and victoria is such a fucking bitch, she wants to steal her own daughter's company, and steal her oh so fabulous designs! BITCH. poor brooke, no more millicent to help her. and lucas and peyton aint around to help :( shit, she got robbed at the very end, by her own mum's henchmen, shows that her mum is threatened bu her talent though. so what?brooke will get her own business up, somehow....mannn this sucks. deb and skills, 50 years old woman with 20+ man, just gross. jamie is cute as usual, with nate and haley. but poor danny boy, stuck with crazy ass nanny carrie, i wish that bitch will just die. danny boy stay awake!



okay, that was pretty much useless ranting about my shows. sigh, now just gotta wait for my homies to finish watching so that we can bitch. hurry BIL!