why

why, when you dont want people to know everything you still subconsciously come down here and pour it all out for the world to see?

why, are people so concerned with the way other people are, as though it were a reflection of their own mistakes?

why, are things made look so simple, but they are in reality, far from it?

why, are the oldest of relationships so fragile, since when were they based on superficiality, based on judgements.

why, are people so hard to please, so quick to judge, so quick to break hearts, and so quick to justify themselves?

why, are people deluded in the idea that they have the power to judge, justify, criticize, rationalize, bully, patronize, isolate.

why, are people becoming more and more predictable as we read on.

why, are we living lives when these questions cant be answered?

why, are we never satisfied with what we have and looking for more

why, when we were meant to live, for so much more.

why, when the skies are dark we wish for the light, but when the sun rises we wish for otherwise

how, did we get so lost in ourselves, so consumed and so selfish/

how, did i make so many mistakes that cant be undone.

how, most importantly, am i going to get through another 7 months in this hellhole.



the answer is, me. im going to pull through, throw however many things u want to throw at me, i have already raised my white flag, its already over, now i'm just gonna keep my opinions to myself, cause they only get me in trouble.


and yes, this blog, is now, private.